Monday, December 31, 2012

December 31, 2012, 11:59 p.m.

A friend reminded me of this quote the other day. A quote from one of my favorite books (also a movie) that kept me "flowing" while I was in India.

"Everything will be all right in the end... if it's not all right, then it's not yet the end." 

For me, it's the perfect summation of 2012.

In fact, I struggled with writing an End of the Year post, in that after living through this extraordinary year, I don't know that I'll ever see an anything.

During the week that MC became very ill, another friend wrote to me and posed this question-- How in the world was I ever going to say goodbye?

It gave me pause, as it had never occurred to me that I would have to say goodbye.

I had said a lot of goodbyes the past year. I had said goodbye to my American family as I boarded that one way flight to India in March. I had said goodbye to my Indian family as I boarded the medevac jet to America in August. I had said goodbye to my 9th Floor family as I boarded the ambulance to hospice in November.

But by the time MC became very ill in December, I had learned, finally, that I no longer needed to say goodbye.

Because I had learned that there will be people and places that I encounter throughout my life that have such a profound impact on my being that I will carry them with me for eternity... regardless of their presence in my life.

I have encountered more of these people and places this past year than I have in my entire 30 years, and I find this quite significant, considering nothing this year was ever really "all right." 

A fact, I suppose, that I can appreciate now as I'd have hated for such encounters to End.

I am grateful for all those both near and far, both present and not present, for all those who have made 2012 the richest year of my life. I am grateful to those who became a part of my life, and more importantly, for those who will remain with me as I continue on into the year to come.  

Wishing All a Beautiful 2013. 

With Love from Baltimore, 
Mommy to One Princess and a Superhero

And for those who need a good laugh... this is Princess displaying her sisterly love after finding out that MC not feeling well means she must ring in the new year at her own house.

 Switching MC's swing to turbo speed...

and kindly "adjusting" his oxygen.


  1. You have learned your lessons well, Grasshopper. Yes, you have.

  2. Happy new year B, Duane, Scarlett and Hayden. May 2013 be a year where you have wonder and happiness but perhaps is not as hectic as 2012?! I love your perspective on things, that you don't say goodbye. Hold your lovely family close, you've earnt every second. Love and huge hugs x x x

  3. Princess and MC are precious together :) you are so well spoken, you leave me with so much deep everytime! Wishing you, Duane, Scarlett and Hayden a wonderful 2013! I know great things are coming yalls way this year, I can just feel it!


  4. Princess and MC look so cute together:) You are so well spoken, you leave me in deep thought everytime! Wishing you, Duane, Scarlett and Hayden a wonderful 2013! I know great things are in store for your family, I can feel it! Happy New Year!


  5. Happy new year to your beautiful family! I have not read your blog for a couple of months, (not intentionally, the months have slipped away!) But I cannot believe how well MC is looking! so happy for you guys! I hope he continues improving. I burst into tears seeing him without oxygen. it must of been a great moment for you. xx here's to a better 2013.

  6. There you go again writing my post! We are living parallel lives my dear.

    Wishing your lovely family a peaceful new year.

  7. Love Princess's love for her brother. Thank you for sharing.

  8. Happy New Year. May this year be the year where live becomes just an unce more calm, when you'll get just a little more sleep and when you smile a lot more. May your family feel as good as they all can. Because this is the year when Princess will take her first steps, say her first words and give her brother the best kisses in the world! Big hugs from Sweden!

  9. love and hugs to a wonderful family...from mine to yours xxoo

  10. Oh their little NYE outfits are so adorable! Sorry MC was under the weather. Hope he's feeling better now.

  11. I hope MC continues to improve. Keep posting the pictures, I love them! :)

    Peace to you and your family in 2013!


  12. That's a lovely sentiment - I might adopt it...

    May next year (this year now) be as rewarding as the last, but with fewer hard decisions. Oh wouldn't that be a happy new year!!

    x Bridg

  13. Hi! I have been reading your blogs since the beginning and the word magnificent is what comes to mind.. Your children, you and hubby and your writing. I had a question that I'm hoping you might address in an upcoming blog...MC obviously is like a different child than from when he went to his home. Is he improving so much that the potential is there for him to come home, as in your home? I know he's in a hospice home and am hoping and praying that because of his improvements, Hospice is no longer needed for it's original intent??? So many wonderful thoughts for your family. I enjoy every, single post from you!

    1. Hi! Thank you for the lovely words. Our new long term goal is to have MC at our house. We have a lot to do in the interim. We'll be waiting for the recent testing to tell us whether we are still looking at the same seizure disorder, or perhaps, a different one. Although the latter would be incredible news, he would still have significant other health issues to address-- mainly, his severe chronic lung disease and a host of developmental issues-- which make careful planning of how we move forward a necessity. We feel a warm weather transfer to our house goal would allow MC to safely stay in his home without the stress of cold air and flu germs. Thanks for asking-- will definitely keep you posted:)

  14. Wishing you many more moments of joy and happiness in 2013!

  15. Your blog is inspirational! Such a lovely family, my heart goes out to you all.
    I really appreciated your taking the time out of your already busy schedule to speak with me on the phone the other day. It meant a lot to us.
    Our twins were born early (1/5/13), they are in Eden, with only feeding tubes (34 weeks). I'll be there in 2 days, so excited!
    Again thank you so much. Your are such a beautiful person.
    Cheers! :)

  16. That's sort of how we feel about you. Happy New Year to the four of you from the four of us.