So I have to give myself a pat on the back for how quickly I dug myself out of the black hole called Last Week. I fell hard but I got up quicker. Could it be that I'm becoming an expert? Ughhhhhh. Really hope not. This is one area of my life in which I'd prefer to remain a novice.
Anyways, even though I am slowly seeing the light again, I am not quite feeling it yet.
Which is why I have challenged myself...
Yep, that's right, I said mental shape. And I'm not talking about enriching my brain by reading a book a day-- I did plenty of that in law school. What I mean, is, I am making it my mission to lose the mental weight I've acquired over the past three years and... get this...
I know, sounds crazy right? What with recent events and the holidays approaching (a time when us infertility sufferers' minds are ALWAYS at their heaviest) my weight loss goal probably seems a bit lofty. But trust me, when I make my mind up that I am going to do something... I DO IT.
And while I haven't exactly fine-tuned the weight loss plan yet, I read somewhere that it helps to post motivational pictures of yourself at the weight you'd like to be. So here goes, Me at My Lightest Mental Weight Ever...
Seconds after Duane proposed to me (babies were the farthest thing from my mind)
On vacation in Disney World and actually having fun?!?! (i.e. not stressed and panicked that I am surrounded by children...thousands of them... and that I might very well be the only adult present who doesn't have any of her own)
What's that I'm drinking? Alcohol... AND... Caffeine... with no worries that I am poisoning my ovaries, increasing my risk of miscarriage or damning myself to a lonely, childless, adulthood???
Yep, those were the good old days-- back when I could go anywhere and do anything without gaining an ounce! Anyways, I realize that I may never be as light as I used to be, but you can't blame a girl for trying. Just looking at these pictures has given me some major motivation to start shedding that weight! I'll keep you posted on the progress... with a three day weekend approaching, I believe I may be off to a very good start!
Anyways, even though I am slowly seeing the light again, I am not quite feeling it yet.
Which is why I have challenged myself...
to get into the best mental shape of my life!
Really Start Enjoying Life Again!
I know, sounds crazy right? What with recent events and the holidays approaching (a time when us infertility sufferers' minds are ALWAYS at their heaviest) my weight loss goal probably seems a bit lofty. But trust me, when I make my mind up that I am going to do something... I DO IT.
Seconds after Duane proposed to me (babies were the farthest thing from my mind)
On vacation in Disney World and actually having fun?!?! (i.e. not stressed and panicked that I am surrounded by children...thousands of them... and that I might very well be the only adult present who doesn't have any of her own)
Great attitude!! Love it. I know it is not easy, but your efforts will pay off.
ReplyDeletelooking at these pictures make me 1.want to get a tan and 2.lose ten pounds!!! lol you are beautiful! i am smirking at your lovely beverages and cute photos! i have to admit, i'm a sucker still for caffeine. and sometimes alcohol. i'm acutally having a glass of pinot grigio right now, and had a martini w/my gf earlier. ehhh, screw it, right!? lol that's how i feel usually the week after bummer news. like all food and all bevs are free to eat and drink! i so admire you!! i too am slowly pulling myself out of that black hole. i might crawl back in here n there but i'm out at the moment!! you rock!
ReplyDeleteenjoy the holiday weekend!!
xoxo
maria <3
Ha! Maria, I believe those were also the "good old days" of tanning beds and laying in the sun for hours without nary a thought of a wrinkle.YOU enjoy the weekend too- we deserve it!!!
ReplyDeleteLove this post! It is just what I needed after my "Last Week."
ReplyDeleteI so appreciate your strength.
Thinking of you and hope you are having a good weekend. I know the sadness is always in the background, but with great company and a positive attitude you will hopefully be able to smile and laugh and enjoy yourself. My daggy kareoke nights out with girlfriends and champagne were the best therapy ever after any bad news.Also deciding as a couple to be as stubborn as possible and not give up! Take care SJ & B xx
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment and finding my blog. Good luck with your FET!! Lets hope we both get our BFP's!
ReplyDeleteGood for you!!! I had a similar point of clarity after the Spring miscarriage. I realized that over the last year I'd given up caffeine, stopped making commitments to anything beyond the current cycle, and lost sight of goals and dreams. We just can't live that way! So, over Summer, I started swimming, began working on becoming scuba certified, and planned a trip. It's a start towards getting my life back. Harris and I have a great marriage, but after years dealing with this, we also need some TLC. So, we're going to be working on getting back into marriage retreats and couple vacations like we did in the "good old days" before the guilt and trauma of infertility took us hostage. It's time to reclaim our lives!
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